I'm a loser...(post of mood)

Totally freak out man...I had failed on my maths...how could such thing just happened on the first examination??Jesus christ...I'm in a bad mood when i knew the result...

Tears were hidden...I think...I don't even got the right to cry...tears cannot be dropped...ashamed of myself...As a student in the first class of form 1...it won't be...I mean...this wouldn't happened...isn't it??But the truth was the opposite of that...

At first,I really thought I won't even give a damn on my first term test...'cause...as time goes by...ever since the results had been so lousy when i was 12...I thought...I wouldn't mind 'bout the results d...But the truth is...I still care about it!I couldn't just let my studies be...I'm not moody...I'll still felt damn sad when the results was not as good as I thought...

I'm a loser...I just can't describe how was my feeling when I knew my maths...I'm totally in a deep shit...

Sometimes,I really wanted to make improvement on those subjects that I couldn't really handle it...But,whenever I open a book some kind like maths or somethin'...I can't even pay attention on it...I'll felt dizzy...just can't effort to take a look on those books that fulled of "numbers"...

All I wanted is to change my lifestyle so that I won't be lazy or find any excuses for anything that I "thought" that I can't effort to do...I'm hopeless and useless...I felt so sorry for two persons...At first I wish to study at a private school....But now,I think i DID NOT own the right to study in such a nice place...I've paid study fees and I learn NOTHING!!!How useless...!I've just learned how to be a useless person...sounds funny,huh...?...

Sorry to the 2 persons...sorry...:'(

I'm useless...little did I know...sorry...

I'm hopeless...I'm a MORON...!!!T.T