I'm totally lost

I've cried.

for all the times 

I've showed my fake smile.

Infront of you.

That.

That was not myself.

It was been forced by

the thinking of mine.

I've laughed.

it was opposite of my true expression.

But I have to do

to show you I'm tough.

Though it was not really true.

I've been wondered 

did you ever tried

to stepped into my world.

But dreams were broken.

When I saw.

I'm the only one.

Who've been trying to.

Cross your mind.

I'm emo right now.

No laughness.

No sadness.

Just soul was truely stil.

No one could be blamed.

But only myself.

I'm totally lost

in the world of you.

I'm missing myself.

After being so untrue

of being me.

These happens in reality.

Day by day.

And it's all

because of you.

Though I understood 

it doesn't worth.

Tears drop.

When you said.

I love you.

'Cause it's not the truth.